The
song that I chose for today is “負親” by Terence Chui. This song is very
new. I only hear this song yesterday and I love it. This song uses the same
melody as “說不出的” by Rico Long but with different lyrics. Both Terence
and Rico are originated from Macau. I think the two of them are good friends. Rico’s
version is good as well, but I prefer Terence’s version. My tears almost
dropped when I listen to this song. It is hard to get a translation on the
title, as it plays with words. The pronunciation of the title is the same as “父親”
meaning father. But as can be seen the first word is different, this word “負”
means owe in this context. So the title indicated that it is a song about
father and that the protagonist of the song feel that he owe his father
something. By the way, the lyrics were especially written for Terence to
describe his relationship with his father who had passed away last year.
The
lyrics of the song are about the relationship between father and son. It starts
with the protagonist telling us that he is thinking of the time when he first meets
his dad. He was scare of his fathers’ pointy beard. He cried and moves backward,
but his father was speaking to his mother tenderly that he is very naughty. When
he was six, he was still scare of his father. Perhaps it was his father’s straight
faces that tell him not to talk to his dad. From then on, even saying goodnight
to his dad he need to think about it for a long time. He feel that his
relationship with his dad is like a couple who just breakup. Times fly, now
when they have dinner together, they don’t talk to each other. He feels that
they are worse than two strangers. Ten years later, one night, he saw that his dad
needs to relay on a machine to breath. He hold his father’s slightly warm hand
and told him that please don’t leave. He said goodnight to his dad, and until
now, he realised that he couldn’t think of anything happy between him and his
father. His tears start to drop, and he feels that this will be the last time
that they see each other. Time could not return to the beginning, he realised
that he missed so much opportunity to create good memories. Now it is too late
to make any promises, he can only keep these words to himself. His guilt of not
being nice to his dad will never fade away. The hug that he put away, the letters
that he didn’t post, now at the funeral, they are completely useless. Next to
his dad’s tombstone, even if he tries to tell his dad about all the little
things that happened today, his dad will not respond. Perhaps when he was a
kid, if he had the courage to say “I love you”, then perhaps, the two of them
would have been a lot closer.
This
song is very touching, even reading the lyrics make me cry. I guess this a very
typical story amount Chinese (or even Asian) community. As a Chinese, we tend
not to say “I love you” to our parents. We assume that they know, they
understand, we feel embarrassed to show these feeling, but sometime, this lead
to misunderstanding. By the time we realised it, it might have been too late.
So perhaps we should act before it is too late. Hope you will like the song. I
also linked to Rico’s “說不出的”, it is also about the
relationship between father and son, but I like Terence’s version much more.
Related
posts:
Father
and son series:
Other
Terence related posts:
27th Oct 2014 (有甚麼事 – Terence Chui)
19th Dec 2013 (寵物的畢業禮 – Terence Chui)
18th Oct 2013 (時光機 – Terence Chui)
27th Oct 2014 (有甚麼事 – Terence Chui)
19th Dec 2013 (寵物的畢業禮 – Terence Chui)
18th Oct 2013 (時光機 – Terence Chui)
負親 – Terence Chui
說不出的 – Rico Long
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